It’s funny to see the cycles of friendships and relationships. It’s a strange world we live in, we all go through the same cycles and same problems. No matter how old you are or how many things you’ve experienced, it seems as if no matter what factors and variables are in the equation, the math will work out the same. There are too many parallels in this world we live in. I’m glad my problems are so minuscule in comparison to everyone else.
Sigh… always the same shit.. just never going to get what I want.
Ever have a dream that felt so real? The emotions, the pain, the whole moment felt as if it actually happened? Imagine it was your worst fear. It’s quite scary.
Bs bs bs bs bs. Thats not fair.
Its hard to look for the light with your eyes shut.
Have you ever seen something or heard something so hurtful, so shocking, so damaging that it just could never be mended? Could never heal? Just can’t let the thought escape your mind? Sucks doesn’t it? What if there was a collection of those about the same thing? How do you recollect yourself from that? It just freaking sucks so much.. different scenarios, same thing… it’s crushing.. it’s horrible. The worst part? You know there is no way out, there’s no way of alleviating this suffering. Sigh. I just don’t know.. you can’t reverse what’s been done, you can’t take it from them, its an established event in history and you can’t alter that. Its not fair. I just wish I could. It’s out of my hands. There’s so many of them and it’s just bottling up crushing me, suffocating my mind, and only more will come. It’s not okay.. I just need my closure, my end, the finale, something hahaha.. I can’t get my accomplishment anymore. It’s gone its taken. So I can’t continue being angered by the events that already took place. F8 b ft 6 I gtuftn long awaited miniature version of my full vent.
Sigh.. I just want a nice restart..
It’s fine, everyone has their own lives. Everyone has their plans, their things to do, their buddies to hang out with. I, myself, am not a good friend and have no position to be upset at others. Its unfair and cruel.
Sigh.. maybe I shoulda restarted too instead of trying to keep old friends..